Tock, tock, tock. A sound like the quick steady beat of a drum. If you hear this noise walking at night in Mauritania you better run for cover, for that is the noise that precedes a deadly animal. I sat with Fatou and M’Bourel after dinner one night chatting about scary stories and they definitely delivered. Fatou, who loves to talk, had a serious face as she told the tale of the “tocking” noise.
“If you see it, it will kill you. And it moves very fast, so you have to run from the sound and hide.” She said.
“Well, what is it!?” I asked, waiting for a monstrous description.
“A one-legged white horse.” She responded.
“………what?” I asked, feeling a flutter of laughter and confusion fill my chest.
“NO!” She said, seeing the smile on my face. “It’s so scary!”
I have to admit that it is slightly creepy; a one-legged horse hopping through the streets, killing those who witness its miraculous movements. I now wonder, observing the dead silence of a Mauritanian night in my village, if these kinds of stories scare people into their houses. Fatou said that she has known this story since she was a child, and has other stories as well. Most of the stories have a lesson at the end – which seems to be “Do not, for God’s sake, walk around alone at night”. Another story she added to this fabulous collection was one of a chicken. If you are walking alone at night and no one else is around (see…) and come across a chicken sitting in dust, that chicken will kill you. Do I see a theme?
But, not all Mauritanian horror stories involve chickens and one-legged horses. I went to Nouakchott with Fatou and got to meet her amazing family. One sister in particular stuck out to me – Salla. She is my age, 24, and is one of the few Mauritanians that has passed the BAC and continued onto University. She studies in the English Department and has a dream to be a journalist, reporting news on TV. I sat with her one night as she cooked, holding a flashlight because the power in their house was cut. Her bright smile alone was enough to light the room. She worked the mortar and pestle in rhythmic tocks and told me about her life. Salla has a beautiful soul. She genuinely cares for people and gives her personal best for others. She has been married for two years, yet, hasn’t seen her husband for at least a year and a half. He is currently in France, working at a hotel. She talks to him rarely, so rarely in fact she’s too embarrassed to say. She told me of a conversation with him a year ago, where he instructed her to quit her job and focus on her studies. There was a tint of jealousy for her husband mixed into this request. Salla was working at a hotel at that time in Nouakchott and he didn’t like the idea of having her “displayed” at the desk for all to see. “He was right,” she told me. “I did need to focus on studies, but I loved my job – and it was money for the family. He promised me he would send money from France, but... I have yet to see it.” She motioned toward the light-bulb above, cold and dark.
She told me that in Mauritania, marriage is a very difficult thing. Marriage very young is not uncommon, mostly because people want to respect their religion and marry before sex, but as a result the rates of separation and divorce are tremendous. The rules of relationships are not as strict for men, and courting others shortly after a first marriage is rather normal. Salla told me that polygamy (Muslims are able to take 4 wives) just doesn’t work in this time. It is difficult nowadays to support just one family – to feed, clothe and nurture children from several families is close to impossible. Men still take their opportunity, and too often one family is left with bare bones. Salla is afraid of this happening. She is afraid that her husband will find another wife and refuse to divorce her. Now she must deal with the emptiness and loneliness independently. Marriage problems are subjects that aren’t talked about. “My mom doesn’t even know how I feel...” She told me, stirring a pot of stewing tomatoes. “And if my friends ask if I have talked to him recently, I have to say yes. I have to convince people everything is ok. It’s just the culture.” She told me that she is already judged all the time for not having a child yet. “It’s really frustrating, you know.” She growled shaking her spoon in the air. “I’m sorry… I’m saying too much – you don’t want to know all this. I just haven’t talked to anyone about it.”
I helped her finish up in the kitchen nook and ate her delicious food. When I left the next day I made a mental note to call her to check in once in a while. She promised to take me by the University next time I’m in Nouakchott to see what it’s like. “It’s not,” She said with a laugh. “Like your American schools, but it’s the best… and only one we have.” As I hugged her goodbye and gave her an extra squeeze and looked her in the eye and told her I thought she was doing a great job. It’s sad see such a beautiful soul so stretched by cultural norms. That’s horror enough for me.
Back in Aleg, I walked back to my house one night after visiting friends to find the family beginning to set up their sleeping mats on the ground outside. I walked in to greet Fatou and peeked into her room.
“You walked back by yourself? Alone? At night?” She asked, eyes slightly widened.
“Yes, but don’t worry Fatou, no chickens in the road tonight.” I said.
She smiled as she welcomed me into her room.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Retrospect
I stood underneath the night sky speckled with stars. A bright almost full moon glowed above me, shaded by slowly moving clouds. And I laughed. Amanda and I had just returned from having dinner with a favorite Pulaar family and as we reached our parting path we laughed into the quiet night. We weren’t laughing at a joke, nor at each-other (which we so often do), but rather, at ourselves. On our walk home that particular night we discussed how much we’ve changed, and what has stayed the same – and in retrospect, how ridiculous we feel at times. That night we took a step out of our bodies and looked down. There we were. Standing in draping mulafes lightly flapping in the wind, our feet dirty from walking through the rocky, dusty streets and our tongues automatically clicking in agreement with truthful statements. Donkeys, goats and cows meandered past, a broken stone house crumbled to our right, and soft-spoken Hassaniya floated from dark houses. We couldn’t help but think about what kind of lives our friends and families were having right now; studying, writing papers, working, getting married, having babies, interviewing and auditioning. We imagined them going to coffee shops and movie theaters, bars and restaurants, supermarkets and bookstores. In Mauritania, we backed away from scary-looking cows, ate grilled meat in tents from carcasses splayed before us, and took pride in choosing what “sheet” (a mulafe is a glorified sheet) to wear that day.
We laughed at how at home we felt in this strange land. We laughed at how our days are spent and the mistakes we make. Our rules and precautions were through the looking glass, and our habits continue to become more and more outlandish. Our tastes (including a new obsession with liver) have changed and our minds have opened to this culture we walk in every day. There are moments, when watching a movie on a computer or checking the internet that one can forget about the world outside the cracked wooden door. When the credits begin to roll or you click the sign out button reality comes rushing back. There are people to visit, there is tea to drink, projects to complete and languages to study. Sometimes it hits you at odd moments - the silliness of it all is countered by absolute realness. That reflection erupts in bubbling laughter. Especially when you think about situations you get in that would never happen in the states.
The other night I walked into my room and was greeted by the leftover African heat trapped in my room like a stove. Hell naw, I said to myself. I could not sleep in that oven. I had to switch my sleeping plans or I would wake up in the middle of the night sweat soaked and cranky. I walked outside where Fatou, Dedehi and their kids were sitting on a mat.
“My room is too hot.” I told them, “I’m sleeping up there.”
Their gazes followed my finger and landed on the roof.
“You want to sleep on the roof!” Fatou said.
“Yes! My room is sooo hot!” I responded.
“She is right, it is very hot inside now. The roof is a good place to sleep.” Dedehi commented.
“Well, let’s go look.” Fatou suggested.
We all (even the kids) climbed the horribly built uneven stairs to the roof to find it littered with rusty old tools, bent nails and homeless keys. We cleared a spot and discussed my mosquito net.
“Well, she doesn’t need a mosquito net up here – there are no mosquitoes up high.” Dedehi said.
“No, no… That’s ridiculous. She needs a net – Go get your net.” Fatou said.
I went and got my net and we began to search for things to help us set it up. I told Muneia, one of the girls, to help me look for nails. We found two and I connected one side of my net to the small wall around the roof. We then stood and looked around, how would we get the other side to stand up? I found a stick and stuck it in a metal contraption and tied the other side of my net to that. Examining the work, which was now in a triangle shape, there were clicks of disapproval.
“Here, do this.” Dedehi said as she took another stick, feed it through the loops of the net and then tied the two sticks together. Genius. Though a little wobbly, it was a nice rectangular net. Now we all stood and looked at the odd set up put together with scraps. Meriem, about 5-years-old, began a little jumping clapping dance, excited about the prospect of me sleeping in the roof.
“You won’t be scared?” Dedehi asked.
“Yeah – It will be scary. I would sleep up here, but Amadou is congested, maybe in a month I’ll come up here with you.” Fatou said.
“Nope. I won’t be scared. It will be peaceful AND cool.” I said.
We all stood around a little while longer, proudly observing out work. I went to sleep that night feeling grateful for the family I was living with - how concerned they were about me, and how willing to help. The wind blew and rustled the net, threatening the “very sturdy” set up, but it never fell.
It is situations like these that make me laugh into the night like the one with Amanda. I’ll take my unique experiences here and hold on to them forever. Sleeping on the roof in a wobbly net, the clothes I wear, the things I eat, learning and being taught – these are things I know I’ll look back upon with a smile.
We laughed at how at home we felt in this strange land. We laughed at how our days are spent and the mistakes we make. Our rules and precautions were through the looking glass, and our habits continue to become more and more outlandish. Our tastes (including a new obsession with liver) have changed and our minds have opened to this culture we walk in every day. There are moments, when watching a movie on a computer or checking the internet that one can forget about the world outside the cracked wooden door. When the credits begin to roll or you click the sign out button reality comes rushing back. There are people to visit, there is tea to drink, projects to complete and languages to study. Sometimes it hits you at odd moments - the silliness of it all is countered by absolute realness. That reflection erupts in bubbling laughter. Especially when you think about situations you get in that would never happen in the states.
The other night I walked into my room and was greeted by the leftover African heat trapped in my room like a stove. Hell naw, I said to myself. I could not sleep in that oven. I had to switch my sleeping plans or I would wake up in the middle of the night sweat soaked and cranky. I walked outside where Fatou, Dedehi and their kids were sitting on a mat.
“My room is too hot.” I told them, “I’m sleeping up there.”
Their gazes followed my finger and landed on the roof.
“You want to sleep on the roof!” Fatou said.
“Yes! My room is sooo hot!” I responded.
“She is right, it is very hot inside now. The roof is a good place to sleep.” Dedehi commented.
“Well, let’s go look.” Fatou suggested.
We all (even the kids) climbed the horribly built uneven stairs to the roof to find it littered with rusty old tools, bent nails and homeless keys. We cleared a spot and discussed my mosquito net.
“Well, she doesn’t need a mosquito net up here – there are no mosquitoes up high.” Dedehi said.
“No, no… That’s ridiculous. She needs a net – Go get your net.” Fatou said.
I went and got my net and we began to search for things to help us set it up. I told Muneia, one of the girls, to help me look for nails. We found two and I connected one side of my net to the small wall around the roof. We then stood and looked around, how would we get the other side to stand up? I found a stick and stuck it in a metal contraption and tied the other side of my net to that. Examining the work, which was now in a triangle shape, there were clicks of disapproval.
“Here, do this.” Dedehi said as she took another stick, feed it through the loops of the net and then tied the two sticks together. Genius. Though a little wobbly, it was a nice rectangular net. Now we all stood and looked at the odd set up put together with scraps. Meriem, about 5-years-old, began a little jumping clapping dance, excited about the prospect of me sleeping in the roof.
“You won’t be scared?” Dedehi asked.
“Yeah – It will be scary. I would sleep up here, but Amadou is congested, maybe in a month I’ll come up here with you.” Fatou said.
“Nope. I won’t be scared. It will be peaceful AND cool.” I said.
We all stood around a little while longer, proudly observing out work. I went to sleep that night feeling grateful for the family I was living with - how concerned they were about me, and how willing to help. The wind blew and rustled the net, threatening the “very sturdy” set up, but it never fell.
It is situations like these that make me laugh into the night like the one with Amanda. I’ll take my unique experiences here and hold on to them forever. Sleeping on the roof in a wobbly net, the clothes I wear, the things I eat, learning and being taught – these are things I know I’ll look back upon with a smile.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Of Pants and Chickens
The other day I witnessed a funny scene that went as follows:
The morning is nice and cool and I'm sitting by a small charcoal grill-like thing with the mom (Dedehi) of my family. We are sitting on a woven mat in the dirt yard while she grills a fish on the charcoal. There is a chicken and about 7 chicks running around the yard, as well as a goat wandering around. Some of the kids are at school, and the ones at home are popping in and out of the concrete house.
"Where did the chicken come from?" I ask.
"Oh - Mohamed brought it home." She says.
We watch for a second as the chicken runs around pecking incessantly at the ground.
"What's wrong with that chick?" I ask, referring to a small one limping around, supporting itself by puffy wing.
"It has a bad leg... poor chick." She says.
"Poor chick." I agree.
We talk a little more about grilling fish verses grilling goat meat, and how both are pretty delicious. She finishes the fish and we begin to pick it apart with our hands and eat it with bread. We look at the door and the 2-year-old Siyad walks out.
"Come here and eat some fish." She says as she beckons him over.
Siyad adorably waddles over in a little shirt with no pants, eyes wide and observing. As he passes the chicken he stops for a second, looking at it skeptically. Being skeptical was good, because in the next second the chicken jumped at him and pecked his unprotected pecker. Siyad screamed in well-deserved horror and danced in place, covering his injured crotch. Dedehi jumped up and ran shouting "Yasser Amer-ack!!" (May god shorten your life - a very common insult in Hassaniya) at the chicken and scooping bewildered Siyad into her arms. I on the other hand am laughing so hard tears are forming in my eyes. Dedehi throws a rock at the chicken, which sqwaks and ruffles it's feathers. She returns to the mat next to me and now she is laughing too.
"That's why you need to wear pants!" She says, giggling and rocking Siyad back and forth.
The other kids come outside to see what the commotion was and also fall into stints of laughter, smiles wide and bright, as their mom recounts the story. She makes one of the kids bring little Siyad some cotton pants and puts them on his small body. He stands in the yard with a tear-stained face looking at the chicken angrily. When the chicken takes a turn and comes toward him he screams in fear and runs back to his mothers side.
"Scared of a chicken!" She bellows, laughing deep from the belly.
****** fast forward to later that evening
We are sitting in a room and one of the kids is making tea. The weather's slightly steamy and a cool breeze blows through the window. Dedehi and her friend sit chatting while I lean on a pillow grading some papers.
"Am I saying this right?" I ask her, reciting a line in Hassaniya.
"It;s better to say it like this..." She says, giving me an example.
As we sip our glasses of tea, Siyad wanders into the room, pant-less once again.
"Look at him!" She tells me, shaking her head. "Where are your pants!" She asks Siyad.
He looks at her and waves his little hand nonchalantly in the direction of the other room.
"Tsk tsk... I'm gonna get that chicken. Heeeere chicken, come here chicken!" She jokes.
Siyad looks at us and immediately covers himself, eyes slightly widened. We all burst out laughing at the site of a poor 2-year-old holding himself in fear of a chicken. He then gets his pants and brings them to his mom, who helps him put them on. We agree that this is a good way to get Siyad to start wearing pants more often - Chicken Threat.
*****The Next Day
I walk in the yard to see the chicken tied with some cloth to a broken wooden box in the corner of the yard. Pant-less Siyad is playing with his brother by the house. Looks like little Siyad won this battle. That is until those little chicks grow up...
I can't help but wonder how many pant-less kids are victim to this kind of attack in Aleg - because there are a LOT of pant-less kids in these streets. Though, now when I see them, I'm gonna chuckle to myself as I recall Siyad's scene in the yard that day.
The morning is nice and cool and I'm sitting by a small charcoal grill-like thing with the mom (Dedehi) of my family. We are sitting on a woven mat in the dirt yard while she grills a fish on the charcoal. There is a chicken and about 7 chicks running around the yard, as well as a goat wandering around. Some of the kids are at school, and the ones at home are popping in and out of the concrete house.
"Where did the chicken come from?" I ask.
"Oh - Mohamed brought it home." She says.
We watch for a second as the chicken runs around pecking incessantly at the ground.
"What's wrong with that chick?" I ask, referring to a small one limping around, supporting itself by puffy wing.
"It has a bad leg... poor chick." She says.
"Poor chick." I agree.
We talk a little more about grilling fish verses grilling goat meat, and how both are pretty delicious. She finishes the fish and we begin to pick it apart with our hands and eat it with bread. We look at the door and the 2-year-old Siyad walks out.
"Come here and eat some fish." She says as she beckons him over.
Siyad adorably waddles over in a little shirt with no pants, eyes wide and observing. As he passes the chicken he stops for a second, looking at it skeptically. Being skeptical was good, because in the next second the chicken jumped at him and pecked his unprotected pecker. Siyad screamed in well-deserved horror and danced in place, covering his injured crotch. Dedehi jumped up and ran shouting "Yasser Amer-ack!!" (May god shorten your life - a very common insult in Hassaniya) at the chicken and scooping bewildered Siyad into her arms. I on the other hand am laughing so hard tears are forming in my eyes. Dedehi throws a rock at the chicken, which sqwaks and ruffles it's feathers. She returns to the mat next to me and now she is laughing too.
"That's why you need to wear pants!" She says, giggling and rocking Siyad back and forth.
The other kids come outside to see what the commotion was and also fall into stints of laughter, smiles wide and bright, as their mom recounts the story. She makes one of the kids bring little Siyad some cotton pants and puts them on his small body. He stands in the yard with a tear-stained face looking at the chicken angrily. When the chicken takes a turn and comes toward him he screams in fear and runs back to his mothers side.
"Scared of a chicken!" She bellows, laughing deep from the belly.
****** fast forward to later that evening
We are sitting in a room and one of the kids is making tea. The weather's slightly steamy and a cool breeze blows through the window. Dedehi and her friend sit chatting while I lean on a pillow grading some papers.
"Am I saying this right?" I ask her, reciting a line in Hassaniya.
"It;s better to say it like this..." She says, giving me an example.
As we sip our glasses of tea, Siyad wanders into the room, pant-less once again.
"Look at him!" She tells me, shaking her head. "Where are your pants!" She asks Siyad.
He looks at her and waves his little hand nonchalantly in the direction of the other room.
"Tsk tsk... I'm gonna get that chicken. Heeeere chicken, come here chicken!" She jokes.
Siyad looks at us and immediately covers himself, eyes slightly widened. We all burst out laughing at the site of a poor 2-year-old holding himself in fear of a chicken. He then gets his pants and brings them to his mom, who helps him put them on. We agree that this is a good way to get Siyad to start wearing pants more often - Chicken Threat.
*****The Next Day
I walk in the yard to see the chicken tied with some cloth to a broken wooden box in the corner of the yard. Pant-less Siyad is playing with his brother by the house. Looks like little Siyad won this battle. That is until those little chicks grow up...
I can't help but wonder how many pant-less kids are victim to this kind of attack in Aleg - because there are a LOT of pant-less kids in these streets. Though, now when I see them, I'm gonna chuckle to myself as I recall Siyad's scene in the yard that day.
Monday, February 23, 2009
My Feet are Tied
In my village of Aleg people let their animals, mostly goats and sheep, roam free. To keep these animals from roaming too far they have adopted the method of tying various extremities to each other, leaving the animal with short awkward steps – a kind of animal insurance. Sometimes the two front legs are tied close together with a rope, or for more creative Mauritanians, the right front leg and left back leg. It is interesting to watch these animals adapt. Maybe for a day or so, they will stand in one spot and belt out their sorrows, but eventually they learn to walk with their legs tied. They develop a hop, strut, or quick two-step, refusing to be contained by twine. I have been amazing at the speed of a passing goat hopping down the street joyfully to the rhythm of its binds. Observing these animals, I couldn’t help but draw a connection to myself here in this village. I have been tied. I have been culturally bound. And I’m finding my rhythm, walking differently than before, maybe more awkwardly or perhaps slower, but I am walking forward.
The other day I went to my classroom with supplies. My bare-wall classroom with broken desks and chipped chalkboard isn’t a stimulating learning environment for these kids at the public high-school. I have become “that teacher”; the crazy eccentric one that tries new ideas and is maybe viewed as a bit nutso. English is so difficult to learn here anyway, I figure I might as well make it as interesting as possible so they walk away with some sort of knowledge. This particular day I had a large map and several pieces of paper cut out with Arabic words written in green. As I taped up the map on the wall my students looked curiously on, wondering what I had this time. I was doing a lesson on geography and location using prepositions. I wanted them to be able to describe the location of a country, region or capital. I wrote English words on the board and they matched them to the Arabic words. Then I had various activities, such as giving each student a country to find on the map and writing its location (Belize is next to Guatemala… ect.). The activity flowed as the students chattered softly and worked with squinted brows and ticking minds. All was going well until one student snapped his fingers and raised his hand.
“Teacher! Palestine not here – look! This map not correct.” He said.
I looked at my students, now turned toward me with questions in their eyes. I felt the cultural rope tighten and knew my pace was slowed.
“Palestine is country. Where is Palestine?” He said, searching the area with scornful eyes.
I took a couple awkward steps forward.
“Well Muhammad… This map is old, but also, Palestine’s borders are still being decided. There is a lot of fighting happening right now, but maybe one day it will be on the map.” I said.
My mouth felt dry, as I knew how sensitive of a subject this was to these students. Mauritania is very much in solidarity with Palestine, and many protests and arguments have broken out. One of the reasons many Mauritanians do not like Americans is because our country supports Israel.
“Here,” I said. “Take this pen, write Palestine where it should be, then lets continue.”
Muhammad proudly wrote Palestine in small letters within the borders of a broken country. The class continued without any strife, taking in the world and new vocabulary.
As I walked to my next class, perhaps it was because I realized again the restraints of my cultural ropes, or perhaps it was because of the wind blowing my Mulafe and map in the sandy air, I made a rather grave mistake. I did not pay attention to where I was going and walked through a small corner of the prayer area. This area is blocked off by bricks on the ground, creating a small outdoor mosque space. The boundaries are open on all sides and about one inch off the ground, so to see it you have to pay attention. I felt my heart stop as I realized I was standing in the corner of a holy space. Here I am, a foreigner, a WOMAN, and I just walked through my student’s prayer area.
I looked up horrified, knowing that this was a major sign of disrespect and saw only a few students standing by me. They clicked their tongues and told me “that is not good…” in Hassaniya. I apologized and told them I was very sorry, that I hadn’t seen where I was going. They only shook their heads at me.
The rest of my next class passed smoothly, only disturbed by the beating of my anxiety wretched heart. I had a break before my final class and went into the teachers lounge. I didn’t know if those students who had seen me went to the director tell him of my wrongdoings, but I was prepared to deal with any consequences. The bell rang for my final class and as I approached the room I saw a large group of girls sitting on the desks. They usually didn’t gather up like this, so I sucked in a breath and got ready to explain myself to them. But, instead of hateful stares, I was greeted with warm smiles.
“Teacher! They want to see the map. Show them.” My students said.
Several girls asked me questions about what I was doing that day, and looked at my Arabic scrawl, telling me how to improve my writing.
“Ok. My class is starting.” I told them. I began my class after the onlookers trickled out, and felt some of the unease leak out of my system.
“Here is Palestine!” Said a girl, pointing to the words Muhammad had written earlier that day.
Class ended and as I collected my papers, my students took down the map and words taped to the chalkboard. They helped me fold up and pack away my things and said they would see me next class.
I walked away that day feeling like the goat I had seen earlier. It was just tied and kept falling on a knee as it marched along. I had surely taken some stumbles that day, but I think my determination and genuineness showed my students that I was only trying to walk with tied feet. Some times has passed since that day and I have picked up my pace a little more, but it’s good to know that every once in a while, a falter is forgivable.
The other day I went to my classroom with supplies. My bare-wall classroom with broken desks and chipped chalkboard isn’t a stimulating learning environment for these kids at the public high-school. I have become “that teacher”; the crazy eccentric one that tries new ideas and is maybe viewed as a bit nutso. English is so difficult to learn here anyway, I figure I might as well make it as interesting as possible so they walk away with some sort of knowledge. This particular day I had a large map and several pieces of paper cut out with Arabic words written in green. As I taped up the map on the wall my students looked curiously on, wondering what I had this time. I was doing a lesson on geography and location using prepositions. I wanted them to be able to describe the location of a country, region or capital. I wrote English words on the board and they matched them to the Arabic words. Then I had various activities, such as giving each student a country to find on the map and writing its location (Belize is next to Guatemala… ect.). The activity flowed as the students chattered softly and worked with squinted brows and ticking minds. All was going well until one student snapped his fingers and raised his hand.
“Teacher! Palestine not here – look! This map not correct.” He said.
I looked at my students, now turned toward me with questions in their eyes. I felt the cultural rope tighten and knew my pace was slowed.
“Palestine is country. Where is Palestine?” He said, searching the area with scornful eyes.
I took a couple awkward steps forward.
“Well Muhammad… This map is old, but also, Palestine’s borders are still being decided. There is a lot of fighting happening right now, but maybe one day it will be on the map.” I said.
My mouth felt dry, as I knew how sensitive of a subject this was to these students. Mauritania is very much in solidarity with Palestine, and many protests and arguments have broken out. One of the reasons many Mauritanians do not like Americans is because our country supports Israel.
“Here,” I said. “Take this pen, write Palestine where it should be, then lets continue.”
Muhammad proudly wrote Palestine in small letters within the borders of a broken country. The class continued without any strife, taking in the world and new vocabulary.
As I walked to my next class, perhaps it was because I realized again the restraints of my cultural ropes, or perhaps it was because of the wind blowing my Mulafe and map in the sandy air, I made a rather grave mistake. I did not pay attention to where I was going and walked through a small corner of the prayer area. This area is blocked off by bricks on the ground, creating a small outdoor mosque space. The boundaries are open on all sides and about one inch off the ground, so to see it you have to pay attention. I felt my heart stop as I realized I was standing in the corner of a holy space. Here I am, a foreigner, a WOMAN, and I just walked through my student’s prayer area.
I looked up horrified, knowing that this was a major sign of disrespect and saw only a few students standing by me. They clicked their tongues and told me “that is not good…” in Hassaniya. I apologized and told them I was very sorry, that I hadn’t seen where I was going. They only shook their heads at me.
The rest of my next class passed smoothly, only disturbed by the beating of my anxiety wretched heart. I had a break before my final class and went into the teachers lounge. I didn’t know if those students who had seen me went to the director tell him of my wrongdoings, but I was prepared to deal with any consequences. The bell rang for my final class and as I approached the room I saw a large group of girls sitting on the desks. They usually didn’t gather up like this, so I sucked in a breath and got ready to explain myself to them. But, instead of hateful stares, I was greeted with warm smiles.
“Teacher! They want to see the map. Show them.” My students said.
Several girls asked me questions about what I was doing that day, and looked at my Arabic scrawl, telling me how to improve my writing.
“Ok. My class is starting.” I told them. I began my class after the onlookers trickled out, and felt some of the unease leak out of my system.
“Here is Palestine!” Said a girl, pointing to the words Muhammad had written earlier that day.
Class ended and as I collected my papers, my students took down the map and words taped to the chalkboard. They helped me fold up and pack away my things and said they would see me next class.
I walked away that day feeling like the goat I had seen earlier. It was just tied and kept falling on a knee as it marched along. I had surely taken some stumbles that day, but I think my determination and genuineness showed my students that I was only trying to walk with tied feet. Some times has passed since that day and I have picked up my pace a little more, but it’s good to know that every once in a while, a falter is forgivable.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Back to reality
After a temporary hiatus from village life, I’m back in my dusty familiar home. Christmas and New Years was spent with other Peace Corps volunteers in Saint Louis, Senegal and in Mauritania, Nouakchott. I was very happy to find warm showers, toilets (with toilet paper!), beer and cheese waiting for me, but found myself itching to get back to my work here. Upon arriving I found the landowner’s family finally moved into my house. A mother and her five children have become part of my everyday life, which for me is awesome. They own a boutique attached to the house and I find it very useful to pop my head in and buy soap or phone credit from them when I need. They are a wonderful family and I’m excited to get to know them over the years.
The youngest girl, Mariem, is about 5 years old and slowly warming to me. She is still unsure of me and with good reason… I often joke with her and try and play little games – which for her, an adult willing to play with kids is unreal. I am reminded of my dad back home in Kansas City, who often has water fights, roller-blade races and secret snacks before dinner with our next door neighborhood kid Conrad. I take his cues and know that eventually I’ll be accepted as a worthy playmate.
My homecoming has been a little hectic, and a bit hilarious. Since the new family has moved in the house I live in has been under some reconstruction. They cleaned the yard, put more bricks on the wall and built stairs up to the roof. The house, which is all concrete, has 3 rooms and a salon. Fatou and I have two of the smaller rooms and the family has the salon and the big room. In Fatou’s room there is an indoor bathroom, which isn’t really much nicer than the one outside, but has the perk of not walking across the yard to the wooden outhouse. In her tiny bathroom there is a creaky faucet with a bucket underneath (the bathtub) and a hole in the ground (the toilet). I returned from Nouakchott with visions of showers in my head and sighed as I squatted down next to the faucet to fill my bucket with cold water to shower.
Now, before I continue, I must add that one of the renovations that the new family had was fixing the outdoor faucet, where they get all their water. Because of this the water switch which controls both faucets, which is a latch about 7 inches down in a dirt hole, was switched to On and buried and packed under the dirt. This resulted in a constant drip in the indoor faucet, which wasn’t a lot, but was enough to get my attention. As I finished filling my bucket I turned off the faucet and watched the water continue to drip drip drip. I decided that the best way to remedy this was to try to turn the faucet off as hard as I could… Guess what happened… Yes. It broke. And not only did it break, but water shot out with so much force I sat for a second with my mouth hanging open watching it blast against the opposite wall in the bathroom before I could process what had happened. On top of this disaster, Fatou was in Nouakchott visiting her family and it was about 11:30 at night. So the family in the other room was asleep and quiet as I sat alone in the bathroom with the water blasting, spraying and soaking everything in the small room. I ran outside to look for the water switch and found smooth dirt where the hole used to be and felt the panic creep up my spine. I went inside, soaking wet and wild eyed, knocked on the family’s door and was greeted by the sleepy eyed mother. In my broken Hassaniya I think I must have said something along the lines of “Much much water in room, I don’t know no turn off… - Help!”
The message must have been somewhat clear, because she looked at me with a slight shake of her head and called her 8 year old son over. She told him to go outside and dig for the switch. So that’s how I found myself dripping wet and digging frantically in the dirt at midnight with an 8 year old. Fatou returned home to find a piece of wood hammered into the faucet pipe, wrapped with rubber and she knew exactly who to call. Now our indoor faucet has a new, non-rusty, head and holds tight. I would say I’ve been more careful with Mauritanian products, but when I left with Fatou one night to eat at our friend’s house, I turned my key to lock my door and the whole lock fell out onto the floor. I stood shaking my head staring at the door while Fatou crumpled in laughter next to me. I told her that I guess I was just to strong for my own good, and she nodded and told me, through a half smile with crinkled tears in her eyes, that she would call someone tomorrow.
And so my story continues – fixed and better than ever.
The youngest girl, Mariem, is about 5 years old and slowly warming to me. She is still unsure of me and with good reason… I often joke with her and try and play little games – which for her, an adult willing to play with kids is unreal. I am reminded of my dad back home in Kansas City, who often has water fights, roller-blade races and secret snacks before dinner with our next door neighborhood kid Conrad. I take his cues and know that eventually I’ll be accepted as a worthy playmate.
My homecoming has been a little hectic, and a bit hilarious. Since the new family has moved in the house I live in has been under some reconstruction. They cleaned the yard, put more bricks on the wall and built stairs up to the roof. The house, which is all concrete, has 3 rooms and a salon. Fatou and I have two of the smaller rooms and the family has the salon and the big room. In Fatou’s room there is an indoor bathroom, which isn’t really much nicer than the one outside, but has the perk of not walking across the yard to the wooden outhouse. In her tiny bathroom there is a creaky faucet with a bucket underneath (the bathtub) and a hole in the ground (the toilet). I returned from Nouakchott with visions of showers in my head and sighed as I squatted down next to the faucet to fill my bucket with cold water to shower.
Now, before I continue, I must add that one of the renovations that the new family had was fixing the outdoor faucet, where they get all their water. Because of this the water switch which controls both faucets, which is a latch about 7 inches down in a dirt hole, was switched to On and buried and packed under the dirt. This resulted in a constant drip in the indoor faucet, which wasn’t a lot, but was enough to get my attention. As I finished filling my bucket I turned off the faucet and watched the water continue to drip drip drip. I decided that the best way to remedy this was to try to turn the faucet off as hard as I could… Guess what happened… Yes. It broke. And not only did it break, but water shot out with so much force I sat for a second with my mouth hanging open watching it blast against the opposite wall in the bathroom before I could process what had happened. On top of this disaster, Fatou was in Nouakchott visiting her family and it was about 11:30 at night. So the family in the other room was asleep and quiet as I sat alone in the bathroom with the water blasting, spraying and soaking everything in the small room. I ran outside to look for the water switch and found smooth dirt where the hole used to be and felt the panic creep up my spine. I went inside, soaking wet and wild eyed, knocked on the family’s door and was greeted by the sleepy eyed mother. In my broken Hassaniya I think I must have said something along the lines of “Much much water in room, I don’t know no turn off… - Help!”
The message must have been somewhat clear, because she looked at me with a slight shake of her head and called her 8 year old son over. She told him to go outside and dig for the switch. So that’s how I found myself dripping wet and digging frantically in the dirt at midnight with an 8 year old. Fatou returned home to find a piece of wood hammered into the faucet pipe, wrapped with rubber and she knew exactly who to call. Now our indoor faucet has a new, non-rusty, head and holds tight. I would say I’ve been more careful with Mauritanian products, but when I left with Fatou one night to eat at our friend’s house, I turned my key to lock my door and the whole lock fell out onto the floor. I stood shaking my head staring at the door while Fatou crumpled in laughter next to me. I told her that I guess I was just to strong for my own good, and she nodded and told me, through a half smile with crinkled tears in her eyes, that she would call someone tomorrow.
And so my story continues – fixed and better than ever.
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